Hey, I'm wearing glasses so I look smarter did it work? I have filmed this video 100 times. Where are you going manager off-camera? Who's making sure I don't say dumb shit Guys, I'm in Orlando right now for digi con I spent the entire day meeting all of you and celebrating the release of my new song facetime Did I mention I released a new song called face time?
Well, you're all viewing this fucking video I might as well mention that I released a new song called facetime I mean like the convention mode, let's stop conventions girl every video on my youtube channel at this point has become an announcement video Sorry, I'm just preparing my serious voice I'm kidding. I actually just have a serious voice, but everyone thinks like otherwise Um up until now I've really hated talking about this or bringing this subject up it's Hannah Cohn is one of those things that I once everything was figured out really just wanted to Erase and I've spent the last like nine months really figuring out how I could grow from it and move on and become a better Person and kind of doing all of that off of the internet because I felt like for a while coming on and being like look I've grown is like not what you do in a situation like knowthat.
You while it was the worst thing ever and I wish I could just erase it I am very grateful for the person it has made me right now Um, and I've sat down to film this video a lot and the other day I was filming a short version of this for MTV but of course I have to like draw it out for 40 minutes on my YouTube channel because that's what this is and I was Sitting there talking about what I'm about to say.
I just got so nervous and I was Reminiscent of when I sat down to film that Infamous fuck VidCon video and I was like, whoa, I actually do feel like years older than that girl I couldn't even watch that video. Now.
I have not watched that fucking VidCon video since I put it out pretty much Because I'm a little embarrassed for that girl I don't regret that video But obviously I've said it before I think things should have stopped there and I let a lot of pain and a lot of anger And a lot of spite take me to a really really place and like I said previously of course I wish I could erase Tana Khan and all the things that happened, but I can and it did it did happen Jordan has chlamydia But I am happy with how much I feel like I've grown from that entire situation, you know And I guess that brings me to my next point Which is what I've been doing since Tana Khan and I think there was a part of me with Tana con even once things were figured out that felt like unfinished business and obviously I've started talking about MTV .
But I think they play a really big role in this that I haven't really talked about yet and that is MTV is owned by Viacom And so I started going to meetings at MTV and working with them and eventually they came to me and they were like hey Viacom also owns VidCon and they really want to talk to you.
Oh That's how it felt I will never forget that I remember sitting there and Paula one of the CEOs and MTV literally saying hey and by the way VidCon wants to talk to you. I was so convinced that they literally just wanted to like have me in their office So everyone could come together and like point and laugh at me, you know what I mean?
I didn't ever think after the things that happened with Tanic on that VidCon would ever be open to a conversation And I am so grateful for that, you know Like pain and anger and frustration and hurt and shit that I wanted to talk about But I felt like I had done something so wrong That it things could never be mended, you know, like why would they even want to talk to me?
And that was a very weird full-circle moment too because it was kind of like wow everything happens for a reason Like maybe MTV was the the reality show company that we chose Like so that this conversation with VidCon could be open, you know, like it everything.
That was the first moment Months and months and months after Tanic on where I felt like I was beginning to be in the right place again I had grown to get to this point, you know, so I went in to talk to VidCon I have this reality show now with MTV that's literally owned by Viacom and VidCon is owned by Viacom and they want to talk to me and like all I ever wanted was to Be a featured creator at VidCon was to be accepted in this space that I so badly Wanted to be accepted in you know Just because I threw this shitty fucking convention doesn't mean I still wasn't deep down longing for that same Acceptance and validation that I always was if anything, I threw the convention because of that, you know, Emma Can you imagine their maturity damn like when VidCon was like?
Okay, let's fucking talk that was the moment where I was like that was where I was put to the test of like have you grown are you gonna Continue to be spiteful and angry or are you gonna say?
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